God, please give me a house
Or some rent houses or places I could live in
Without anxiety or fear or sadness
Without feeling frightened to be sent away from, just because the people who own the house, or feel the only owner of the house think they deserve punishing me who seem to be just the tourist
God, I also want to stay
But where could I stay?
If I have a house, given by my dad, but my mom envy me so much with all her life just because I would own a house
Which I could dream forever to have one
God, where could I stay?
If my dad let my stepmother sent me away from his place
And if I stay in my grandma's house, grandma from mom, but her children, all of them, including my mom dislike me to bother their place
God, where could I stay?
If my dad let me rent a room downtown, but all the neighbours envy me, just because I rent the room for me alone, and they would bother me all day with cigarette smokes, lying request to mop the public area floor and I would not, even the women neighbours would look at me at disgust, and knock on my wall deliberately, frequently in a day, and making the scenario as if the men are the good ones and I was the only one person who is bad.
God, whom I could marry with?
If the person I love would be taken too by You, for being with another girl downtown, which I never ever imagined he would plan for this all along.
And the dream parents in law, and the society, and him, would last forever betraying me because it did happen.
God, I have many questions as I mentioned about the unfair things. But, I have a genuine question, where could I stay, where could I live in, whom I could marry, could I be with the one I love, would you not allow others make my life as a discussion or something to expose about, because I do not want it to be, and where would be our place together in the world? ....
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