The Man video or song by Taylor Swift on YouTube, by Taylor Swift in Lover, 2019, Live in Paris, 2019

I know I didn't come to Taylor Swift's reputation stadium tour 2018, but I feel somehow like I have a strong connection into it, nor I saw it in Netflix yet. My real chance was jn January 2019, after I graduated as a master of English language and literature education, only by a fans video in YouTube, but it felt real to me and I got my surprise song: Starlight. Guess the place was where?




Anyway somebody had mocked me when I posted Starlight on Path, December 2014, as a bad girl because of the song or maybe the title? But, man, I got that as a surprise song now. You know.




I feel like I am the man who should be the part of the tour as the real people coming there that time. But, I used my parents' money for Umroh, getting the surgery, building for my living and completing all my obligation to be a master of English language and literature instead, in the rush of Taylor Swift's in the tour.



I guess it is the same, right? I mean to be the Swiftie. And, I got to watch Taylor Swift's performances in Paris in the Lover album era on YouTube. This is very much to me. I love you Taylor Swift, we love you. Now Taylor Swift is going to lunch the video of The Man Live in Paris. I guess, I am also the man the song means. You know. You know that I'm so sick of them coming at me again
'Cause if I was a man
Then I'd be the man


The Man, Taylor Swift in Lover, 2019

Cancelling my UNY Lecturer plan in 2020 (this year) - Maybe next time if there is anymore recruitment

I attended a lecturer test in Yogyakarta, UNY, I passed the general knowledge and English written computer based test, then I did not come for the interview and teaching oractice test. It hurts me a lot. I want to be a lecturer. Now, I do not know for sure, again, when I could apply and be accepted. I should wait for the next recruitment in any possible places.

The test was 22 January, which I attended, and 23 January, which I did not come.

I should prepare my money, my cosmetics, my eyebrow pencil on, to motivate myself. I shoild make presentations amd materials of teaching, and keep studying for the general knowledge and English written test.


My father told me it is to far to work there, but he does not know how I need to be a lecturer. Because it is my passion to be a lecturer. There is no single opportunity he offers me for being a lecturer, either. He does not know I could be a good lecturer. I could be a lecturer. Someday, we are going to win honey.

The Lover album by Taylor Swift

If I should feel haunted, and that is what I am feeling, the I would be grateful, because there is a lyric by Taylor Swift that I like, "Give me something that'll haunt me when you're not around", in Sparks Fly song. I would be grateful, to feel the haunted feeling for what I still do not know about you, but I know that you have your eyes on me. And I am feeling comfortable to be with you.

Papa (My Dad) - the photos sent to me in November 21, 2013

My photo collections may be too scattered all the way, too many people to know by the readers, or maybe too imaginative because I like making thoughts, even though sometimes I have mistakes. But, these photos are my Dad's, it is when he was studying for his Master degree. I love you, Dad.

Lover album by Taylor Swift, 2019, and all the songs in the album

In November 11, 2017, I wrote the status in this Facebook account of mine that I was married, up until now I have the status. The date is known to be the most single day ever in the year, 11-11. But now, this year, you make this year so special Taylor Swift, that you would perform in Alibaba, in China. Taylor Swift is with her Mom Andrea, and she also stays in Japan since 7 November. This is kinda my first time, knowing her in the time zone two hours earlier than here in Indonesia. Usually, I wonder how in New York the time is, 11 hours latter than in Indonesia. At least, and at all cost, I guess that this year is good, too. It feels like, "It's Nice To Have A Friend", by Taylor Swift in Lover, 2019.

Death By A Thousand Cuts, London Boy, Soon You'll Get Better, by Taylor Swift; ME!, Taylor Swift ft. Brendon Urie; Lover by Taylor Swift; Lover album by Taylor Swift

Sometimes, the other people might get too straightforward to conclude that the songs I listen to and share is used by me to make some statements. Then, I would say, no, I just like the songs. They are the creation, they are the products of some discourse in the particular events in life by the creator. And, I just like the songs.

Miss Americana & The Heartbreak Prince, Taylor Swift; ME!, Taylor Swift ft. Brendon Urie; all of the songs in Lover, by Taylor Swift, 2019

I'd never intend to disturb you, or make you unhappy with anything I might do. But, when you choose to leave me when I need you, I am sorry, for whatever you do not like about me. It was considered so rude, and mean, to me. I am sorry.