Dear the February month 2021,.. I would like to apologize to my Lover, my Husband.
I texted him too much out of the working day and hour, on Saturday (February 13) and on Sunday (February 14), of many thigs we have that should be kept more as a secret from his first family, first wife and his child, his son. I do not mind to take care of them, and to love the family as the whole beautiful one, but I do not know, maybe it is better to prevent fights between the first family to the second, that is mine, me and my husband, that I am as the seecond wife.
no celebration, no official wedding reception, of course. but being the wife of my husband's is all I need, Lord Jesus Christ. I love my Lover, I love my Husband, too.
I know, not all people would even believe my existence, my presence, my status, even me as a woman, I understand that it is going to be these ways, but this is what I am. I often am considered or underestimated by men or women, as an unmarried yet one, but I am. I should tell them, and I never feel tired and do not mind to pray to Lord Jesus to protect me, that I am as a wife, I need to love my husband and tell others my status as a wife of my husband. although I am the second wife, but still, I am a wife of my husband's.
Dear February 2021.. because of the misbehavior I did to text my husband in the time of family of him, the first family, now he could not contact me anymore. the last time he did this because of my fault too to text him on holiday was on 2020 March, and we contacted again on 2020 July. It took four month, until we communicate again, and meet again. it took even seven months for us to meet again last month. I am happy with us, Lord Jesus, but, I do not even imagine how many months more to get us to communicate again and meet again. I am a wife, too, and in my hope, I get an equal understanding about my life, and to communicate routinely with my husband, and meet my husband routinely. as we planned. and agreed.
Dear February 2021.. now it is near to my husband's birthday in the midst of the month. I hope I could say something to congratulate his birthday, and we contact, we talk, we text again, we meet for the birthday meeting, even though there is no celebration, but to meet and communicate again, it is everything to me, Lord Jesus.
Dear Lord Jesus, please take care of him, take care of me, take care of us, take care of our family, our marriage. take care of us, Lord Jesus. so we could get through this period of missing each other, not knowing exactly, again, memorizing our memory, reflecting our habits, bettering our life. amen. I hope you bear him his problems to be solved, Lord Jesus, and you lead me to know you more, to pray for him, to pray as a catholic, to you, my Lord Jesus. amen.
